When meditating in the last few days I came to see clearly a major nemesis that had secretly thwarted me for years. It was especially ardent during my early years of yoga and meditation and has certainly lessened over time. But until recently, it still lurked surreptitiously darting in and out of my meditations and yoga practices.
There would be this compulsion pushing hard on me, “Will enlightenment happen now or in the next moment… or in the next?” This made anything that was happening in meditation/yoga unacceptable and ultimately then not fulfilling. It negated the present moment. It was a voice that demanded the ultimate now…a compulsion to be perfect. And it urged me to push harder still!
Dropping the urgency for enlightenment, for ultimate fulfillment now, and its misguided pressure gone, I can more easily settle into the meditation and accept what is happening. My heart and mind can open to and embrace the present. A glorious in-the-moment balance has been restored.
Accept the present as it is and feel what it is like to be more fulfilled and much more deeply satisfied with your meditations.
The true longing for enlightenment can remain without the necessity for it to happen now. Enjoy the learning, the real gems, along the way!
The Every Day Yogi 